I had already posted it on my patreon, but I wanted to make sure that all the people on here that have been very supportive and all that also know that I've written about my first two days on my very first fulltime job.

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I just got out of work(tuesday February 21), and I'm sitting straight down to tell you everything, because I feel so much has happened. Let me start, before my story goes away and I go into chill mode.

Monday January 20th. - Introduction day at Mentor
Purposely I get up early so that I have a nice amount of time to get ready to face this thing. I had bought food to bring to it and felt pretty prepared. I made sure I was 10 minutes early, so that if they would come and get me at 8.30 I would be ready. Got a nice box with white work shoes and Glasses that (surprise surprise) wouldn't fit over my own glasses, from the lady at the counter and a pass, and she told me the trainers weren't there yet. I have a thing for thatthough, so I though I'd probably just came an hour or a half to early, which was the case. Better too early than too late, right?

9.00: No trainer. 9:10: No trainer... And no message, or apology, or notification. 9:27: Some english woman picks me and the other trainee up to join her to the training room, which appearently she had taken all that 27 minutes to clean up, because it wasn't cleaned up before. I frowned upon this, it's not a very nice start.
So she started a powerpoint in english, and told us she wasn't the trainer, and that there would be a dutch trainer soon, but she would just start off with the beginning and that the original traineer wasnt there because of reasons so the other guy would replace him. *Frowns*.
10.10 or so the replacing trainer enters the room. A nice guy though, seen him in the pub before, knew his name and other way around, but he had only heard that he would be giving that training like half an hour ago. The powerpoint was crap, he was clearly disappointed with the contents, and all kinds of stuff went wrong. This naturally upset me. We did get a lot of info though, so it wasn't for nothing, but it was also a lot to process. Oh and that box with shoes and all? Didn't need it that day, so we nicely returned it to the lady that obv had no idea what was the idea of the boxes. (also there was a note saying I would come get them friday, which is nothing like anything discussed and made no sence at all, so there was someone making mistakes here aswell, yet something else that was now linked to me that went wrong, that i had no control over whatsoever.)

Finally we got another tour through the factory, which showed most of it. some rooms were really stinky from chemicals though, and there was also a room that was really hot, which you had to wear glasses for. I got handed large heavy glasses that would press down on my nose and irritate it. This is probably the part that was most upsetting. I felt like it wouldn't be healthy for me to work there, like it wasn't safe.
And thén I was told that there might not be free lockers. While you cannot bring your phone and all that with you. What?! So I "Possibly" got to leave my stuff unattended?! I felt betrayed.

I realised that at that moment or shortly after it, why I get panic attacks from employers: I try SO hard to be perfect, or at least as good as possible, to be a great candidate/employee, and this is how they treat you? All that I am in control of, I will do as good as possible, yet they fail to even start a frikkin introduction in time, then the powerpoint is shit and half of it is irrelevant even, then there's not a healthy environment, no tools given (proper glasses) to make you do your job optimally, and even "Possibly" no locker.
How can companies do this? I'm a potential years long employee, or that's what you're aiming for and your introduction to the company gives me such bad impression? And that's only the introduction?! How much worse can it get? I had NO faith whatsoever!

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I didn't post the full thing here though, Since It's eh, a bit long, but If you want to read how this ends, make sure you read the rest of it on my patreon! > Link here https://www.patreon.com/posts/special-blog-of-8184435